I Made It to Tucson

I bet some of you wondered where the heck I have been. Traveling across the country was way more intense than I expected. There was a lot of shedding and growth that I had to go through to get here, and with all the bumps in the road I decided to take a lot of space from social media and blogging.

I will catch you up on what happened along the way in the coming days, but for now I am excited to announce that I am now settled in my new home!

Tucson Arizona is the place James and I decided to live. The constant sunshine and vibrant way of life feels comfortable and healing. Being surrounded by mountains and national parks means we can go hiking at any time! The views are breathtaking, especially during golden hour right before sunset when the mountains look purple and pink.

We are currently renting a house in a cute neighborhood right near a small park. Every morning I see my neighbors walk or bike by with their dogs and children and it makes me feel safe to have this community around me. After living in an RV for two months it is so nice to have space to move around and a kitchen to cook in, a backyard to hang around in our hammocks, and a real bed to stretch out in. The cats are happy to have more room to run around and outdoor space to feel wild in.

Tucson is home to a wide variety of food and restaurants which keeps me entertained. My recent accomplishment of becoming a yelp elite for 2017 gives me a purpose to my hobby of checking in, posting pictures and leaving reviews.

One of things I was most excited to do once settled was start gardening again. I am so thankful to have a raised bed in the backyard and lots of space to experiment with. Currently I am growing strawberries, silver mint, tomatillos, tomatoes, cabbage, brussel sprouts, two kinds of lettuce, two kinds of kale, lavender, parsley, Serrano peppers, and a dwarf pomegranate tree. I also received a huge box worth of aloe from a generous craigslist connection. My travel herb garden that came with me from CT is still producing basil and oregano. I have a compost bin working its magic to supplement the soil and I fell in love with the nursery and garden center called Green Things here in town.

That’s all for now, check back soon!

Assateague Island

Upon reaching Assateague Island National Seashore, we drove straight for the dump station to clear our septic line. We are no longer using the original toilet due to the way it turns waste into toxic waste as oppose to what we prefer turning our waste into: usable compost. Along with the septic flush we also added fresh water to our tank. As we began to pull away from the dump station, the seemingly inevitable happened: we ran out of gas.

Our gas gauge is perhaps not broken beyond repair but it certainly not working. Because of this we are learning how much gas the tank can hold and for how many miles it will last us. We get between 7-8 miles to the gallon with our Jamboree.

So with an empty tank and AAA on the way, I decided to jump into the bay side to cool off. It was absolutely beautiful! The water was very warm and quite shallow. There were a few families around, not too many to seem busy but it was nice to feel sort of a safe vibe.

While I went swimming James prepared lunch. Waiting for help wasn’t so bad since we had activities to keep us busy. By the time we were filled up with gas and then settled in our parking spot everything for lunch had been prepped and just had to be cooked and assembled.

James cooking in the kitchen while I relax 
After lunch we headed to the ocean side of the island for a different experience. The ocean is only visible once crossing over the dunes, and the water is much cooler. The waves are significantly larger and the water becomes deeper much quicker. The day we went there were some people but it was not crowded.

One of the most amazing things about Assateague is the wild horses. Very rarely in the wild can you find horses like this. They walk among the campers and visitors and although it isn’t recommended to approach them, they may approach you. Here is a link to a video of them! 

First Trip// Atlantic City, NJ

It was finally time for us to pack up nearly all of our chosen belongings and the four kidtz (cat kids, it’s a thing okay) for our first real trip with the RV.


Starting from Hartford CT we traveled through Nyack for lunch and a stroll. Not to be distracted by its cuteness for long, we headed straight to Atlantic City where we found a flat spot next to some flowers and water to park next to for the night. James had tickets to see The Killers with his dad at the Borgata which they said was an amazing performance. After the show we had some drinks while playing the poker machine where we all took turns sending it our magic, then made our way to the café for an obligatory late meal.

Lunch in Nyack at Murasaki
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At the Borgata

The next morning we slowly started to move as we figured out a rhythm, but soon we were traveling South until we reached the Cape May Ferry, which we promptly boarded, kidtz and all.


Traveling with cats is super fun. Bringing them everywhere I go reminds me how much they enjoy doing fun things too! Tiffany likes to be in the driver’s seat and look out the window, Oliver likes the bed or under the bench, Adelé will flop anywhere, and Shiva can be found in my underwear basket during the heat of mid day.


Now we are spending a few days in Ocean City Maryland with my in-laws. It takes a few days to get used to being relaxed but taking the time to organize the space and eating enough food helps me to feel more at home.❤️

Full Moon Metta

Usually I leave the astrological genius to the Master StarMan, this Full Moon I have some advice, which is mostly for myself but I thought I would share anyway. Usually when I am going through something someone else somewhere is too. So here it goes. 

Full moons are illuminating. Turn the lights on full blast and even the darkest corners of your soul feel illuminated and bare. Sometimes being seen in full light can feel liberating and powerful, other times it can feel crummy and hurt your eyes. Seeing the truth to who we and others really are is sometimes not what we want revealed to us. 

My solution to the discomfort of being ablaze is lovingkindness metta: simple prayers uttered to align with love. I send them to myself and I send them to others. Especially to those who I am pissed off with.  Honestly this is one of the huge keys to happiness and to forgiveness. 

May I be filled with lovingkindness. 

May all beings everywhere be filled with lovingkindness. 

❤️

The Power of Anal Penetration

The world would be an amazing place if everyone had anal sex. My favorite thing about anal penetration is it is inclusive because everyone has a butt! Even if you don’t think of yourself as the type to receive in that way, read on to see why I think it’s a good idea. 

It could be sex with a partner, solo playtimes, or deep ceremony. Either way, the opening of the root chakra is an opportunity that we can take advantage of physically. Most chakras are trapped inside the body but the first two chakras have very sensitive openings that we can tap into.

The first chakra is located by the anus, and the second chakra is located by the reproductive organs. During stimulation of the sacral chakra many have experienced the kundalini rising from sacral to crown in an energetic loop along the spine. This experience is powerful and can send one into the sexual dimension.

However if we stimulate the root chakra then the kundalini activation begins at the lowest chakra and then goes up to the crown. This kundalini awakening is seemingly much fuller and the energy opens in ways unlike any other. 

Sex isn’t the only way to stimulate and open the root chakra. Enemas and colonics are powerful energy clearings that have health benefits to go along. 

If you’re still reading, thank you! Topics like this are only taboo because we let it stay hidden in the shadows. If you are new to anal exploration, find a way that is most comfortable for you and be open to what might happen! If you have any thoughts to add to this topic I would love to hear them in the comments below. 

For more amazing information on mindful anal I found this article to be most friendly.😊

Krista Ray is a holistic therapist passionate about seeing people empowered. To learn more or book a session visit the Angel Ray Therapy page.✨

Peace and Serenity from Abusive Relationships and Toxic Interactions

For me having a zero bullshit policy is how I protect myself. This means that if I feel that anyone is messing with my energy as a means to trigger me into fight or flight mode, I choose to remove this energy from me.

This looks like unfriending people who troll and belittle my beliefs. Refusing to spend time with people who display habits of hurt, apologize, repeat. These cycles are harmful because they trick us into thinking that the healthy and loving traits that people have overpower the clearly unhealthy behavior that can sometimes be displayed.

If someone hurts me in repitition, even if they are sorry I must make the choice to walk away. If I stay in that position then I will only grow to resent myself and the other person for allowing the hurt to continue. I must empower myself in every moment to see that my inner peace is paramount.

The keener my intuition is, the stricter my no bullshit policy seems to get. More and more times I see how I have allowed energies around me to pull me down. I know my own strength and I must respect my limits. Sometimes the things that trigger me may seem small to someone else, and that is why I know what is best for myself, and you know what is best for you.

Sometimes I am tempted to allow these energies near me because I want to be kind, or because I am attracted to that which is different and seductive. Ultimately I know that everyone is on their perfect path, but this does not mean that I must be close to everyone in every moment. It is okay to take space from people. It does not mean that anyone is wrong or bad, it simply means that we are working on different things.

Doing my best means being aligned with my intuition. Trusting it strengthens my relationship to myself and I feel in harmony with my being. Isn’t this the peace that so many of us are looking for?❤️

I Put Period Blood in My Plants

They loved it. I knew about this anchoring idea of fertilizing plants with blood but had never tried it until now. I have seen significant plant growth since I fed them a mixture of period blood collected from my menstrual cup and water. 

Period blood contains the major nutrients that plants need to grow, nitrogen, phosphorus and potassium. The best part about this natural fertilizer is that it is free. Talk about DIY! 😊

I Was Harrassed While Driving

The feeling of being harassed is like waking up in a nightmare. One second I think I am an empowered and confident woman, the next minute I notice my darting eyes and short breath as I plan my escape. 
Today I was harassed while driving. I suppose you could call it road rage, but for the time that I was under the spell of panic all I knew was that I wanted to get away. 

I’m fine. I should start by saying that, but apart from the physical, I am not fine. What happened began as a typical situation: I was driving to work while eating a slice of pizza and the car in front of me was going a bit slow. As I became closer the driver braked and pulled over, so I passed as I saw that he was an older man. After that I drove ahead to the next stoplight where I stopped at the line waiting for the light to change. When the driver behind me came near, he pulled his tan SUV up beside me in the left turn lane, except he pulled his car harshly in front on mine completely blocking the road in front of me. I heard him yelling at me through the windows of his car, while mine were cracked only a couple inches leaking out sweet classical tunes. 

I knew this man was aggressive so I quickly thought the best thing to do was to get away, so I quickly turned right on red even though it was not my intended direction. To my surprise the aggravated driver followed me! I panicked as I realized the car in front of me was also going slow, a mail truck. I respectfully kept a safe distance and began deep breathing to stay calm. Soon the car behind me grew impatient and turned left. I thought he was gone but I still felt shaken. I felt like each street held potential danger. 

A few moments later, a car pulled up behind me, it was him. He had taken another route and ended up right behind me. As we approached a light and a major intersection, I had no choice but to stop in my lane as he pulled up next to me, only a few inches away. I felt encroached upon. His window was all the way down and his arm was out, I pulled my window up. He yelled “You’re under arrest!” And I said “Who ARE you?”

I kept my focus straight ahead and as soon as the light turned green I slowly as safely as I could continued on. I thought perhaps he would crash into me as a way to confront me further. I looked at the GPS and saw that I could turn onto a side street and likely surprise him. I stopped behind several cars at a light ahead and he stopped next to me, too close, even though there was several car lengths room for him to pull forward. When it became obvious he was stopped in a clear lane and the light turned green, he gave up and went forward as I made a sharp right. 

Then I went to the school where I was heading to pick up the girl I nanny. Imagine if this crazy man had followed me there? I was terrified of confrontation and even more so of bringing kids into it. I knew surrounded my parents and teachers I was safe, but it would take some time to reflect and heal on the trauma that happened today. 

I share this story because something happens when trauma enters our experience. We could be seemingly so strong but when our safety is unexpectedly threatened the body and mind enter a fight or flight mode. It was as if for me my whole worldview changed in a second. It’s hard to describe, but if you have experienced it you know what I mean. 

If you ever need someone to talk to, someone to listen, I am here for you. We all deserve to feel safe and I hope by sharing this story you feel less alone. ❤️

On Obligations & Selfishness

I try not to do anything out of obligation. I think that sometimes this can be taken the wrong way, because I see a lot of people doing things out of obligation, so not participating can make one stand out. Most of the time I am okay with this. 

The whole motivation behind staying away from obligatory acts is it holds my time and attention at maximum sacred. My heart, mind and soul want to be fully invested in everything I do, and keeping my needs and desires at top priority is how I achieve satisfaction. 

You see, I believe that we are all complete beings. This means that I trust the ideas that I have to be good, I am confident in my guts voice and intuition, and my self care is what heals me. Believing these to be true sets my vantage point on success. 

Now my values and habits are what make up who I am, and as I mentioned self care is essential to my healing. So when obligations come up that I can choose to abstain from, if I find that choosing what is best for me is sometimes staying away from the crowd. Sometimes the crowd does not like this. (The crowd could be anyone)

To some this may sound very selfish. Good, let’s talk about the S word. Being selfish is not inherently bad. I think that some of us have been taught that if our actions cause someone else’s feelings to be hurt, then we should not do that action. I wager though, aren’t we all responsible for our feelings? If no one is physically hurt, and choosing what is best for YOU hurts someone’s feelings, perhaps we should make ourselves a priority and let them mature into their emotions. 

You see I come from an opposite point of view. In abusive and manipulative relationships I learned that it was better for me to sacrifice my wants and needs for the sake of the other person, because if I can just keep quiet and make their needs a priority then everything will be fine. But NO, I am not fine inside when I suppress my needs. This is where learning to be selfish has changed my life. 

My life is top priority. My needs must be met. I chose to take my life into my own hands even if it hurt the feelings of another. I chose to say no to obligations because that obligation would cause me enormous stress. Even if the crowd doesn’t understand, that’s okay. I know what is best for me. ❤